audio: un: witdiseased

[hadbaddreams]

 I have of late, wherefore I know not, lost all my mirth.

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un: jjones

[walkingshitshow]

Your mirth?

[hadbaddreams]

It feels as though all the joy has gone from my life.

[walkingshitshow]

Did that happen just today?

[hadbaddreams]

Aye, as though someone has taken away the sun and left me in the darkness.

[walkingshitshow]

Uh.

That's kind of a shitty feeling to have.

[hadbaddreams]

And just yesterday I felt joyful. Hopeful, even, that the days might be brighter here. That this persistent darkness would not follow me here.

Ah, I could be bounded in a nutshell and call myself queen of infinite space, were it not that I had bad dreams.

[walkingshitshow]

I think it's kind of normal to have days like that. I have bad days too where I...feel down or I don't want to think about bad things.

[ Though her description of it sounds kind of intense. ]

You....could do that but why?

[hadbaddreams]

Pay me no mind, I know not of what I speak.

[There's an audible breath. A long, shaky exhale]

Since my youth I have been plagued by these dark days. I fear they have only worsened since my father's death.

[walkingshitshow]

I can get that. Losing family can mess with you.

What do you do to distract yourself?

[hadbaddreams]

I take walks. Though the heat is near oppressive, it is a momentary distraction from my mood.

[walkingshitshow]

Do you like music? You're welcome to come hang out at the bar whenever.

[hadbaddreams]

I have been spending time and money at Starkbucks when not at work. But I think the coffee does nothing to help my insomnia, so I have gone there less and less.

I do enjoy music. Thank you for your invitation.

[walkingshitshow]

Yeah and I think their coffee kind of sucks now, doesn't it? I don't know, I don't really have a lot of good advice there on how to handle insomnia. I know a few tricks that a head doc told me but...

[ She shrugs. ]

No problem. Can't promise you'll find your mirth or anything but the distraction should be good. Plus maybe the dancing.

[hadbaddreams]

I had never attempted coffee before, and so the experience was all together new to me.

I am not a great one for dancing, but I do enjoy music. Though perhaps watching the others dance might inspire me.

[walkingshitshow]

I probably shouldn't suggest alcohol since that can sometimes make things worse. But we have other drinks at the bar too.

And honestly, no one dances at a bar to be good. They dance to have fun.

[hadbaddreams]

Then I will come, and dance, and attempt to be merry.

[walkingshitshow]

I'll keep an eye out for you then.

audio; un: Number 2

[bargain_batman]

[ He made a face, hearing the familiar quote. Diego wondered if it was some kind of code. He gave in and continued what he remembered. ]

Forgone all custom of exercises; it goes so heavily with my disposition that this good frame, the earth, seems to me a sterile promontory?

[hadbaddreams]

It is as though the words are plucked from my very head.

[bargain_batman]

Only if you’re Hamlet.

[hadbaddreams]

Aye, that is what they call me, and so it is my name.

[bargain_batman]

Your name is Hamlet?

[hadbaddreams]

Aye, as it was my father's name before me.

[bargain_batman]

…Are you serious?

[hadbaddreams]

Should I lie about such things?

[bargain_batman]

No.

[ A long pause before he spoke again. ]

Sorry? [ The last thing he expected was there not to be a code in the message and to be talking to actual Hamlet …which in the grand scheme of things made no sense but given what Diego had experienced even before arriving in Haven, he wasn’t going to go any further than he had questioning her. ]

UN: punsintended | Text.

[babyavenger]

uh...

same?

[hadbaddreams]

If your mood is the same as mine then truly am I sorry, for I wish this disposition on no one.

[babyavenger]

yeah, no kidding.

but listen, if youre really feeling that low, you might want to talk to someone. like a mental health expert.

[hadbaddreams]

[It takes her a little while to parse out what a mental health expert might be -- health, she knows. Mental she knows has to do with the brain. So she aims and misses the mark slightly]

Do you think it possible I have some sort of brain fever?

un: gwennnnn - text.

[hibana_incursa]

That’s a mood.

[hadbaddreams]

... yes. It is my mood. As I have said. I believe.

[hibana_incursa]

That’s how kids back home say they feel the same. I was saying I’m having the same issue.

[hadbaddreams]

I am then sorry that you share this mood. It is no mood I wish for anyone.

[hibana_incursa]

I'll be okay.

What about you, though? You need anything?

[hadbaddreams]

The moods come and go. The darkness lingers for a time before my energy seems to return and I feel brighter once more. Sometimes a matter of days, sometimes a matter of months.

[hibana_incursa]

Do you like rock climbing? It helps me out. It gives me something else to focus on.

Or, maybe I can teach you how to play the drums? That helps, too. Just like...as a way to get out of my own head when it's stuck in negativity.

[hadbaddreams]

I have tried neither of these things. I worry I might harm your drums should I decide to take my aggression out on them.

[hibana_incursa]

It's fine. They can be repaired at the music store. I've had to do that twice.

[hadbaddreams]

Then you are kind to offer, and I may be agreeable to this arrangement.

un: dollhouse

[ventriloschism]

I believe I know what that feels like.

I'm sorry you feel it too. I hope you can find it again.